Ever changing face…

I’ll never be satisfied with the way my site looks. I think that is the nature of being creative and artistic. Something always influences you and forces you to want to make changes. I’ve recently felt that way in my life as well. I’m seeing that I want to take more risks in life. That I’ve been playing it too safe for too long and just have been watching everyday just pass on by without something really interesting occuring. I’m sitting here at 2:11 in the morning, just coming back from the bar and I dont even feel like going to bed yet. On any normal night I would of gone straight to bed but tonight I just dont have the urge. Not sure if its just my body still being kept awake by the remenents of beer in my blood or the fact that I dont have to go to work tomorrow morning so my motivation to sleep just isnt there.

Now I know that I may seem to be rambling on now, but from my pespective isnt that what this whole medium is for? For me to just pour out what is inside of me for everyone to look at and disect. To await comments or to check my stats to see how many people have subscribed to my RSS feed. I’m not really sure what it is, or what this is for that matter. But I guess in the end I could say that I’ve put something out there. Something that people notice. And I guess what i’m saying or trying to say is that I need to put myself out there more and not worry about how people may perceive me and to just be me. As profound as that may sound, I know its not something that many us never really accomplish or do. Most people go day to day trying to impress or to obtain that perfect status that we are all so programmed to strive for. I know..this is getting all psychological and everything, late nights tend to do that to me.

I guess look forward to more insights or just observations as these…cause anything that can make you think more about what is going on, makes you look at yourself and re-evaluate who you are. And hopefully its for the good